Hello Trace14: Thanks for sharing your thoughts. The Skeezyks has seen a few therapists for brief periods of time, over the years... never did CBT, DBT, or any of that stuff. I never found a therapist I thought was worth the effort. Yes, one of the things that has stopped me from even considering seeing another therapist is the thought of having to start all over again.

Sometimes it does seem to be easier to write one's thoughts out than it is to try to talk it all through. Even if you don't end up giving your T the letter, writing it may help you organize your thoughts & be better prepared to talk about them during your next session. I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time with all of these distressing memories & wish you well with your efforts to heal...