As I've mentioned in previous posts. I'm getting my affairs in order so I can get a divorce. Sadly this is taking longer then I hoped so I'm stuck in this in between stage. Getting prepared to create a new life while surviving my current one. It's stressful. Very stressful..but I'm just trying to enjoy my kids and keep the peace with my husband.
He senses my displeasure..and we have had the "things need to change" discussion numerous times this year. He has put in a slight effort, I admit. But for me....too little too late.
Anyways..I took my family on holidays last week. I dreaded it! My husband ruins EVERY holiday by pouting and acting grumpy when it doesn't turn out the way he has envisioned it. This is my cue to fix whatever is wrong :-( This holiday was actually fun. We had a great time and he kept his manipulative attitude to a minimum.
I started to wonder...am I making a mistake...should I start putting in an effort now to see if this can work a bit longer..maybe he will FINALLY get it....
See...hope.
Then I sat down and REALLY evaluated the situation. And I realized. I planned the holiday. I packed. I PAID for the entire holiday. I did it all. And here I am giving HIM credit for being a decent person!!! Of course he's in a good mood. I would be too if someone did that for me. As I mentioned in previous posts...I made a double decker chocolate cake..and he threw me a crumb.
Hope LOVES crumbs.....
So I flipped HOPE the bird and told I was worth way more.
Sticking to my plan.