What is wrong with me? I can't seem to fully accept his love for me. I don't feel like I deserve it. I feel that he's a much better person than I ever will be, and I can't seem to get over my ex which is unfair to him so it makes me feel even less deserving of his love. I keep switching from feeling so completely satisfied with him to wanting to break up and be alone forever...since that idea somehow seems safer despite being a lonely one.

I'm kind of sad realizing that when I first joined PC nearly a year ago I was a lot more positive and motivational. I posted a lot more, I talked to other people a lot more, and in general was not doing quite as badly as I am now. I feel like I've let everyone down...