met with new t today..... she gave me ocd dx along with gad and depression (i was expecting those 2). i was like, are you sure? she says yes i'm sure. i never would have thought it was ocd..... i thought it was just anxiety. i thought my checking was just me being a worrier. i thought my number issue was just a quirk. so........ ocd? feels weird to think about that in relation to myself. i meet with the pdoc in 3 weeks...... t is suggesting luvox. i'll have to do some research on that.

anyway still kind of surprised its ocd. i never would have thought it. my "homework" she gave me is to tell myself everytime i want to check the door or the stove that its "just my ocd trying to trick me." i told her i dont think thats gonna stop me from checking. she says i can still check as long as i tell myself its ocd and not real. she says eventually, with the tx and meds, it will start to work. but i couldnt imagine not checking. i ALWAYS check. why does it have to be ocd? maybe its just me. anyway just typing thoughts here. anyone else get a surprise ocd dx?