I seem to be more sad at night now, again. During the hours I usually enjoy the most on the days I normally get really happy to be home; those hours before bed I don't feel content. When I keep struggling to do something I normally enjoy I feel repetitious when I go back to just being like BLAH. )= Having trouble relying on myself until i find a new T. Maybe things will get better when I don't work as much and I have more control over what I get to do. Thanks to readers for listening to my vent