I'm not planning to have kids anyway these are just fears I am not sexually active I haven't been for a year which is great. To be honest I am happier now that I haven't had sex with anyone it always felt shameful and strange when I had sex with anyone. So I am glad that I don't anymore. I don't intend to become sexual again I like it better this way I don't ever want to go back. I am afraid that if I had a relationship I would have to... So I don't really talk to anyone.