Hello, Yismymindblank12, I'm hoping you are safe. Have you tried contacting any hotlines, doctors, or loved ones? Are you feeling any better than you were?

Something that might help is to imagine any and all positive outcomes of this situation. If you move back to where this girl lives, you might develop a newfound love for your home. Being near her family might take some of the weight of childbearing off of your shoulders. Staying in Texas however, could lead to new work for you and a way to afford child support.

There are many possibilities. You know the people involved, including yourself, better than anyone here, so when you have a moment of calm you might need to strategize. You might qualify for government assistance, the girl who keeps contacting you might need to interact with someone else for a change, you two should probably get advice from multiple people. Make plans to not only survive, but to also do as well as you can.

Good luck to you.