everything I touch turns bad
makes me feel so sad
people close I push away
always have, what can I say
a freak i feel
don't know what's real
ten bricks at a time
builds a wall that's mine
keeps me from pain
shelters me from rain.
friends once close
gone I suppose.
When will I learn
to trust, not yearn
for love, to be secure
just dont know anymore.
forgive me please
I live with unease
every day
wish I could pray.
even God rejects me
I'm bad you see.
bad to the core
can't go on any more.
just push everyone away
what can I say.

Kerry