Hi nicole, sorry to hear the stressful situation you are under. Unfortunately we cannot change anything we have done in our past, just remember it was your illness making you act this way. First of all, you have to forgive yourself and try not to hang onto those experiences. I know it is embarrassing to be around people that know of this but you are stable now. I wouldn't let that keep me from getting a job in an organization. People will see that you have changed and if you are comfortable about talking about you diagnosis you can explain if someone says anything. Again forgiving yourself is the biggest step and you might find others to be more forgiving of you. I wish you the best of luck as you travel this new path.