Don't worry about anything like lifting boulders. Step 1 - make yourself happy. Build some daily momentum with something or a combination of things. Right now, for me it's basically exercise, food, and routine. It has kind of led me to a feeling of goodness about every day. But it's taken four weeks or so to get to where I am now.

When we really consider it, "living" is basically doing what makes us happy. Anything else is counter-productive. The key is being able to deal with the negative stuff that brings us down because it *is* there, we just have to manage it.

Once we make ourselves happy, things sort of fall into place. I've been thinking about it a lot lately.....I've been very selfish with my time. Without being a jerk, I'm focusing on ME for the first time in probably 20 years. After I get to a happy, consistent place, I can lift my boulders.

BTW I climbed a mountain last week - 3,600 feet - all by myself. I had a blast......very cleansing.

OK, rock on!