I've been depressed since I was a teenager, but have recently been re-diagnosed as Bipolar type 2, which fits well with my anxiety disorder, too. I've been in a downward spiral for a couple months, which I attributed to a change in medication, but it's not the meds, I'm in a full blown bipolar meltdown. I'm starting to think I don't even have a personality anymore, I'm just a moping lump of goo. I'm not working right now (I can't during this - I sleep 14-16 hrs a day). I try to do things while I'm up, but I either talk myself out of it, or I half *** attempt it and give up. My husband keeps trying to give me "projects" to keep me busy and out of bed, but I resent it, and don't do anything. He doesn't understand what bipolar 2 is, and he thinks I'm checking out on our marriage, but I'm checking out of everything - I have no interests, no friends, no hobbies (everything I used to love is boring now), and I barely speak. I see my doctor again on the 11, can you give me any advice about how to tell her all this, and what to ask to get better? I'm so foggy I can't think straight, and I know I'll miss something in telling her all this. I write out what I want to say, but I can't predict her answers or other questions. I appreciate any help you can provide. I don't want to feel like this anymore.
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