DocJohn,

The futher the progression, I've found I fly of the handle more and more. Not at the wife ,kids family just strangers. I just want to climb down their throats for NO reason.. Is there an answer to my problem, or will this continued to get worst? I want to be happy/as happy as I can.

I just can't come to grips with who I am, don't like it much. "Strange" Seems like the only thing I want to do is make it over 300 post, to become a veteran member, sad. Silly as that may seem it means so much to me, like I will have left something.

It has been a long night, the sleepness nights are starting to stack up. I'm sure my parents wish they had a more productive son, what can you do. I'm to tried to go help with the yard work, now that fall is on us they have two acres to keep clean, I don't have the strenght.

Cancer sucks in always and fashions, a day like today I will tell me, its over, no more posting just slide away. I don't feel like most of you get what I'm trying to say anyhow. HUGG,,,,,,,,

Someone smack me or wright mean a hate letter.............

Lost & Angry..............

Tucker