Today has been not great. I had a lot of anxiety earlier, still do, but finding out this morning that I lost the necklace my bf gave me just dropped me. I spent most of the morning crying over it. I had an appointment with my new T this afternoon, and I felt a little better after that, but now I'm starting to think about things we talked about and feel bad again. My bf has been looking at hotels for a trip we're taking in a few weeks, and that's got me feeling crappy too. Our initial plan was to try to stay with the friends we're visiting, but then bf started thinking about how that will go for me, since my anxiety makes it really hard to sleep in strange places. Now I feel like such a burden because I don't know if I'll be able to sleep there or not. I'm feeling really unsure of myself and it hurts. I think by this point in my life I should be over a lot of the things that bother me, should be able to act like an adult and be independent and all that stuff. But I still feel like a kid trying to get through life without any help, even though the things I'm doing are way over my head. It shouldn't be this hard for a 29 year old.