The sensory overload is too overwhelming in large crowds.

Did we have the same dad? They were very similar, it seems.

It was a catch-22. Loved him dearly! He was sometimes very dangerous and I never knew which he'd be in any given moment. Even until the end -- on the phone, trying to stop him from taking his own life. Feeling terrified, terrorized -- and also secretly feeling some relief it was over, the turmoil was over. I was 12 y.o. and had terrible survivors guilt for many years.
Certainly felt guilty for feeling some sense of relief within such a horrible tragedy. Sad.

(((((( TRACE ))))))

Inner Peace, Comfort, Joy


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