My worst therapy experience was actually at a program. I went to a dbt partial hospital program shortly after being dxed with BP (again). There was no process group where I could talk about what was going on with me and my individual therapy sessions were just going over the diary card, not helping me learn how to handle the dx. My moods were fluctuating wildly, vacillating between horrible paralyzingly depression and unbelievable euphoric mania. This program was convinced I was making everything up for attention. The worse I got, the more they said I could control it if I tried and I was just being willful and difficult. I wasn't applying dbt skills. I told them toward the end that I felt like two different people and that I felt I had been possssed by a demon. I was clearly psychotic, but they refused to change my meds or even let me see the doctor. It ended when I hurt myself bad enough to need 20 or so stitches and ended up IP.
I think dbt can be helpful, but if your moods are from bipolar, it can't stop them. I know dbt forwards and backwards now and it still doesn't bring me out of a depression. It helps me cope better with the depression but I'm still depressed.
I'll never do a straight dbt program again.
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-Albus Dumbledore
That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it
f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have.
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