I miss feeling euphoric, as I do during hypomania. I look back and logically know that these experiences were not healthy and resulted in damage emotionally and financially, but I still cannot stop craving the experiences I had during the height of hypomania and that feeling of being so on top of the world and excited for the future.

I know it gives me a skewed view of what it means to be truly healthy and happy, but I can't stop myself from grieving the times where I felt good as a result of hypomania. I suspect that I don't know what it feels like to feel happiness without the hypomania....maybe. Which is bad since I know the happiness I felt while hypomanic was just an illusion. Basically, lately I'm addicted to feeling that rush that I would get while "up," in spite of its consequences. I regret those decisions, but crave the high feeling.

For those of you who can relate, what helps you cope with these feelings?