Well honestly, I believe when you have a plan and a time line that the best place for you in the hospital (at least the hospitals I have been too). She doesn't throw me in the hospital for just having suicidal thoughts. Most doctors if you even mention that you have thought about dying lock you up. Mine doesn't. So to me she is a great doctor. I think you need to find a Psychologist (not therapist) that can help you through your issues. One you can trust.