I'm nearly 50, 5'3", and 216.6 pounds.
In my case, i don't know if the weight problems i've had were due to meds or just atrocious eating habits. I ate a lot of junk, bag after family-sized bag of chips and cheesies. Coconut cream pie daily, New York Fries until they knew my order and fish and chips. Lots of fried, salty stuff. Kit Kat bars -- so many i bought them in the grocery store, a sleeve of four, four at a time, so 16 bars total.
I'm very unhappy with my weight. It's hard to find clothes and to move around. I carry most of my weight in my belly so it sticks out hideously. Before i let my hair go grey i used to get asked if i was pregnant. Seven months along? one woman asked. B&tch!
I go from being rebellious about my weight to dieting. Over the years i've gone on kicks of saying, "I'm large and in charge!" "I'm puff not buff!" "I'm Rubenesque!" "I'm large and lovely!" I've championed the size-acceptance movement at times. I've spouted the socialist analysis of the idea of female beauty and thinness being a way of oppressing women by the male-dominated capitalist elite. I found that analysis in a book called "The Beauty Myth," by Naomi Wolf and was quite insufferable about it, up on my soapbox to anyone who would listen.
Then again, i diet. I've lost weight on meds before. In 2007 / 2008 i went on a year-long diet and lost 65 pounds. Once i got going, it just took a little diligence to keep eating healthy and in moderation. I maintained for about another six months and then wandered away from my healthy habits and gained all the weight back.
Which brings me to my present diet. It's exactly one month today and i have lost six pounds in the first four weeks! I'm thrilled! I'm nearly 50 and on Seroquel now so i didn't know if it would be possible. But i am losing at a rate of 1.5 pounds a week so if i can keep this up in a year i will have lost my 80 pounds and be at 140 -- what my doctor says is a healthy weight.
I was a skinny kid and an anorexic teen so i'm really f&cked up about my weight. I think i go from one extreme to the other because of my borderline black-and-white thinking. I tell myself it's different this time: it's a lifestyle change. And it does feel different. But i've said that before...
Last edited by Anonymous41462; Aug 05, 2016 at 05:46 PM.
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