I'm pretty young so I don't know how much I can really help here. I can tell you that I deal with my own childhood traumas and now, being an adult, I'm still on high alert. I had some things happen when I was a child and then as a teenager I was assaulted (somewhat similar) to your experience several times. I'm very paranoid as a result. In my job, people aren't always so happy with me and think it's a good idea to threaten or take a swing at me. If I weren't paranoid I'm pretty sure something would've happened by now. I just hope that with enough therapy you'll be able to go out and enjoy yourself rather than looking over your shoulder. And be careful not to push yourself too far too fast, it could end up making things worse. Just take it slow and have patience (a lot easier said than done for me). Good luck.