True. All the work one has to put into learning to deal with this illness is staggering (and endless), and it has helped tremendously, but I can also understand the "defeatist attitude" that your mum succumbed to in her life. I seem to be interpreting life that way alot, and for more than a while now.

Maybe I am misinterpreting the "calmness" I have in my life as boredom and uneventful (?)