I still have very suicidal thoughts almost daily. I found that even if these thoughts and desires don't go away, I can learn to cope with them. I force myself to find a purpose doing something, or just think of someone I love and see that as a purpose. When I do this, I find I can counter my suicidal thoughts with reasons I have to stay around. I also write, draw or just make myself sit and listen to music until I can work everything out in my head. Eventually, I make myself so tired that I just sleep for a bit and then a feel better for a while. They always seem to come back one way or another. It's a struggle I will deal with for the foreseeable future and might as well see it through to the end.