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have you thought about why you have the sexual fantasies (where they might be coming from)?

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NO.

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did he talk about that at all?

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NO %#@&#! WAY-- HE KNOWS BETTER THAN THAT.

Well, I guess that sums it up, lol.

You see, I was at a complete loss for what to say. T asked me if it felt safe to talk about. I lied and said, "Sure, sure.... it's safe now... Ok. Let's talk about sex in analysis. What do I do first?" And I had no idea what to talk about anymore. That, along with the fact that he knew I was completely lying, did not get me very far.

He said that the way I feel in regards to talking about sex with him is like two porcupines touching. He said that they come really close, but then have to pull away because of their spikey things. He said it is the thing that makes us come closer, more connected-- but then the need to pull back because it hurts.