im just baffled by this memory problem
dunno how its possible to be so... forgetful i guess..
being something so crazy and strange its not really something i ever like to talk about because people just dont get it.. they repeat stupid things like, 'you just stay on the computer too much' 'you need to sleep more regularly'(like no duh.. if i could sleep better i would really) 'its because of all the alcohol and pot you smoked/drinked before' and im just like dont even want to talk about the memory prob because i just end up making things more complicated for me in the end... people start to mess with you or play games with you or testing you or something and im just trying to deal with enough and dont need people outside trying to play mind games with me...

just really disappointed and sad with the whole situation
im going to try to lay down and sleep... just wish the dreams would take a break for a few days..

therapist shouldn't get mad because i cant remember stuff right..?
i keep trying to tell her that i cant help it and i just really hope that she doesnt get mad..

never had anyone that was really interested in helping before