I think some of what your experiencing is a combination of several elements, which could overwhelm anyone. Take in consideration (1) you've moved, (2) your living with other people, (3) your medically in need (meds), and finally (4) anxious about it ALL! I think you maybe over thinking all of these concerns, to a degree this is understandable however, BPD people think 24/7 which often adds excessive uncontrollable anxiety which isn't good. Sounds like you need a breather from it all. Take sometime to just "breath!" Step away from stressful events and distract your thoughts. This can be done by watching TV, going for a walk, journaling, going to a movie, etc. when I use to get stressed I watched cartoons. (Lol) sounds funny huh, it's meant to because we need laughter [emoji38]. You, can do this!! You have great strengths within you, pull on those tools. You need them now until your appointment comes.
Triggers can sometimes indicate a desire for "controlling" a situation which many with BPD like to do, we need to know what battles to fight. Own what's yours to handle and let go of others. We have enough to carry. My friend your going through what's known as transition which brings uneasiness. Seems like a tunnel but there's light on the other end. Breathed!! Ok ❤️[emoji177][emoji179][emoji178][emoji7]

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