I'm 17 as most know, my problems have always been before my time. As of late, I've said "I'm going to be free" , "I'm going to be a teenager". My T keeps asking me "would a girlfriend help"? I've explored this stage but have only been heart broken to find out I'm not what any girl I'm intrested in wants. I've been an adult in a young body all my life, the struggles seem unbareable because I've not had the experience with some of the things I've faced.

Now turning into a teenager, right before I become an adult ,...seems impossible. I've never fit in at school at all. I tried speaking with a girl I found physically attrative my first t hought was "this is wrong to like someone for their body first"....mostly all the women I've been attracted to where online and I saw their personality first. I got my heart broken trying to fix my life. They say life is to short, so I took in control and accepted to live it, ppart of life is heart break, I've just experienced it.

I often see teens at my school making out, I want that I want to experience love, sexuality, when I'm young so I'm not old when I learn from my mistakes. Alot of my teachers are very immature , in fact its depressing. I have one who his password to his PC is 2 girls in class in which flirt with him, he has been rumored to have slept with 1 girl in the past that was a minor. My teachers also make us average our own grades, they're too lazy to do their job, heck itts just worksheets , nothing like a lecture at all....

I'm sorry I'm ranting but this teenage life....doesn't cut it....I've been an adult and a teen...both miserable......I must find an angel..........

A way.........