I'm very worried. I'm pretty sure I can't get down the stairs on Tuesday, and if he prescribes a benzo I don't think it's legal for the pharmacy to let it out of the store by giving it to anyone but the patient.

My friend is going to help me get to my retina appointment the week after this coming one. I absolutely need his help for the eye appointments because I can't see anything after they give me drops and blind me with the light. And I must get to the other opthalmologists no later than in September.

So I don't know when or if I will ever get back to the pdoc again.

I also must go to a dentist to see if I have oral cancer,and a dermatologist to see if I have skin cancer.

I don't know what to do. Even if he does prescribe a benzo, I'm not sure if that would help me get down the stairs without falling. Oh, and I'm running out of my ap meds.