Hi Fuzzy
I'm sorry you're struggling so much, and I think lots of us wish that we could take all what you're going through away from you.........but no easy answers...........

Although I do want to add to the chorus (the crescendo!!!) that you are
not useless.........not in the slightest!!!!
I can
easily imagine that your words........your hugs.......your caring...........your kindheartedness............has meant
a lot to
a lot of people on here

You are one amazing person Fuzzy!!
And however unspecial/useless you feel try timesing that by a million to show how special and important you
are!!
And..........one hour........one day at a time Fuzzy...........even if we don't/can't help as much as we'd like to..........we're definitely here for you in this.
Alison