I guess I'm getting a little better at not running my mouth, but I didn't realize how bad it is until recently. I'm not manic, I'm sleeping and eating (not enough). If anything I'm a little depressed. I haven't been showering or cleaning the house.

First, I'm not a gossip, but I tell people almost everything about myself my interactions with others. I trust people too much. Then as soon as I tell a story of what someone said or did, I walk away thinking, "Oh god, that's going to get back to them and it's going to turn into a nightmare."

I have to get a handle on the talking and the paranoia. My whole thing is, I always think every time I screw up (or at least think I have) that I will stop, then I have to just wait it out for a while and see if someone tries to kill me or gets really mad or something crazy happens.

Then it goes away and I do something stupid again! It's a vicious cycle. I have to break it!