I feel embarrassed becasue I think my tdoc thinks i am trying to make him think that I have PTSD after my experiences in hospital.
And I feel embarrassed because I think it must seem like a pretty obvious ploy to avoid acknowledging that its just my own developmental problems. Also I htink maybe he sees it as a way of being a 'victim' and trying to punish them by exaggerating how bad it was eg so making out 'look what you did to me i have PTSD'.

on hte other hand I might be projecting my own suspicions about myself or I might just be being really paranoid.