I never had proper therapy before. I was just wondering if anyone else who has been sexsually abused as a child is or has been through therapy and gets overwhelming urges for maternal love. My mother emotionally abused me, her lover sexually abused me, they did it in front of me several times as I was growing up. I feel like I have a lot of the feelings I had when I was growing up, insecurity, worthlessness, and I crave a 'mums' love. I never really had that from her and I have asked her for some space now, I am not ready to sort things out with her as she is in denial, but now she is giving me this space I just need her so badly. I know it sound stupid because she was so cruel. Is this normal? My t says it's a good idea to have this time apart, until I can bring these issues up with her. I even go to bed and suck my thumb sometimes which is pathetic I am 42 years old!!!!! I stopped sucking my thumb when I was about 5.
I feel so confused right now.

Jinnyann xoxoxo