actually, i like a label for it. not in the negative sense, but more of the "ah, this is why i am the way i am" feeling. i read up there, the black white thinking is what causes too many scenarios in the head. wouldn' tthat be why in therapy i'm always asking my t to be more specific in questions? oh, and does anyone else catastrophize? roll over in your head all the possible bad things that could ever happen...in a fantasy sense? (best friend/sig other/parent/child dies and it builds this other relationship and life turns out for the better from this terrible thing?) i always figured it was if i planned for it, it would be ok.......? dunno. i also have the bipolar and panic disorders, but i'm not sure how that makes anything different, except the panic with the fear of wind and all. maybe it's easier to blame the people hating thing on the bpd, instead of thinking that i'm just a crazy ***** no one likes, which is my defensive way of saying bad person. just less depressing that way i guess. i hear a lot of people saying how the labeling is bad, which i dont think it is. the name is vague, but for example my mom gave my hubby when we got married "stop walking on eggshells", like an instruction manual. reading it depressed me though, only got thru part of it. it was a "damn, thisis how people see me. that sux.". so if you have bpd, i don't remember reading it personally. i guess i phrased myself wrong. i know why people don't like us, i just don't like why they don't, and the simple fact that they do. oh, thnx for all the feedback it helped me see this.