things are better now. that was on sat. sun was still bad. been doing some work cleaning hotels this week. i had to push past that dissociative spot, which i did with a housephone to the arm a couple times, but i did. can't go to the er, need to work can't go inpatient cause i need to work to keep my home. want to, but can't right now.. nights are bad but not that bad. still feel ****** that i dont want to win custody, court dates next month. sux. either i'm crushed or he is. damnit all.