-Woods - Thank you so much for your input and the time and effort you put into responding to what may be one of the most personal posts I have shared in my lifetime. My husband is definitely on board, and we are now talking more about having a child.

I was able to open up to him about having never felt "eligible" to have a fairly-normal life (though "normal" does not exist, nor has the "usual" ever been my cup of tea/ within my nature). Turns out we actually have had similar feelings and fears when it comes to perfectionism (creating a foolproof and safe environment for a child, given we do not have family either of us can rely upon, aside from one another and a few close friends).

Although I am still not sure whether natural childbirth will be for me, I am definitely sure (in my right mind) I would be a great parent. My husband thinks so as well, and I have been feeling very lucky to have him, lately. We have been having a few very difficult months, during which we have both been hurting very much, and I have been having intense bouts of emotional pain.
Today, I revealed to him (during one of my very intense bouts of pain) something which I repeat to myself quite often (during such moments), "I don't think anyone would ever want me to be their mother."

Woods, I am very glad to hear your experience with parenthood has been positive, and not worth changing, or reversing. I hear often one can never be prepared. I do believe preparation to be faulty and full of holes. I just want to make sure my husband and I have at least ONE ally to rely-upon (emotionally, morally), if we were to decide to become pregnant/ try to become pregnant.
This is a new topic for me to be open about. I have been open about most everything else in life, except for this topic. A forbidden topic to me.

In the event we decide natural is not the way, or we are not able to conceive, I would love to look into foster/adopt. I know most children who have lived a life in Social Services, bouncing from home to home, are not easily-desired by potential parents. I find this sad and unfortunate, but I am fully willing to attempt to serve as a source of support and nurturance for such a person.
A big decision.

Again, Woods, thank you. I very much appreciate your sharing your experience with me, and reaching out to me during a time which I very much need such support. Additionally, I appreciate your accepting my vulnerability in regards to what has always been a very touchy and scary topic for me.

Take care,