This is not much of an advice but for now, pet your cat and feel the love reflecting back to you, have a good talk with the cat about a night sky? Is he/she still doing alright? I reckon even pretty girls aren't loved 100% of the time, you'd wanna learn to see others with some understandings, it depends on where you live and stuff, big cities have bunch of pretty people walking around, in my nearest big city, what the view tells me is all I see is copies, clone wars of all the people competing against each other, so meeting someone I'd like to get to know would be not looking great statistically, I guess that a socializing takes many experiences, pursuing something within yourself, tending fire day and night all through the seasons, and these are just a starting point, a rather stable path to a life style that anyone wish they had.

What didn't I have when I was younger? I don't mean to bore anyone so I'm not gonna talk about it. Anyone on here don't want you to die, don't think of it even for a second, and I for one think that you must hold on for the future where you'll gain more insight/outsight, a real face to face interaction with others aren't happening as much as what would anyone think in my opinion, the world is consist of social b***$hit, that's never entirely your fault.

P.S. I am sorry that you feel that way, no one can really see you exactly the way that you want to end it all, I don't know how you've been dealing with it, I guess you'll want a healthy way to cope, converting it into fuel, being ablaze to be a light for yourself, I hope you come up with something and do, there won't be any silly ideas, everyday being a repeat, if that's what you have lately, that'd be a bad sign for anyone's life. Even if nobody notices it, do a nice thing, watch and feel, please keep watching where you're headed, I'm not saying you posted anything wrong, I like your haiku posts, please try to love those little moments, it's vital supplements of life.