That's a good way of putting it, Doh2007. And some of the other things that were said was helpful also.
Physically, just this last week, I haven't been feeling good. Have had IBS most of my life, but it's been controllable and able to figure out usually. But since Thurs. last week, I've had stomach cramps and what can go with that. Not feeling well. I may also be going through pre-menapause, started a week early. Throws body's system off big-time. So, got upset with hubby for things he did or said. Have dealt with horrible PMS most life also. Get real sensitive, but wow, he can too, you know for "their times".
Anyway, had to call 800- hotline because I feel like he doesn't care or no one else maybe either when I feel bad. Self pity, whatever. But wow, is more extreme when down in body. Can't think clearly, make good decisions.
So, I need to think of me? Wouldn't know where to begin, as to what might make me happy, like the girl said on the phone. I've always been too dependent, plus sometimes just like my alone time and quiet, that can make me happy, I guess. But I don't get much lately. So the cycle continues. I get upset, with noises, etc.
Yeah, thought of hurting myself the other day. Hate to think of it. Want to feel like I'm important, but get the opposite feeling from him sometimes.
Well I can't get this together, much has gone on with me lately, my mom died last of Aug., had to help take care of parents last 3 years, even though they were in a rest home. I may have to go to a doctor for some of my physical things. Hate to, usually take supplements, try to doctor myself in a way. Have had intestines checked several times in past, etc. though. No Ins. now, on & on. I'm just down and tired. I like feeling good. Just don't have many of those days anymore, it seems. Am 51, may say something, maybe not. But going to let this do for now. Thanks and you all take care!