I'm a ****ing idiot for not taking my medication yesterday but today I realized the real reason I did it was because my Lithium was seriously making me eat wayyyy more than I usually would allow myself to do. Even yesterday I spent the half of the day chastizing myself for eating more, snacking. I just feel...disgusted with myself. Is this feeling from just my eating disorder or are the feelings of worthlessness just another symptom of bipolar? I'm so scared to weigh myself because if it's a number that I don't like I don't know what I'm going to do to myself. I've already self-harmed which I haven't done steadily for two months. Don't tell me you told me so, I already know. I figured it wouldn't make a difference because I was already feeling horrible yesterday anyways.