fragmentation?

feeling like you are breaking up...
dispersing into the world
or like you are exploding outwards
or dissipating...
or that you are liquid and are merging with your surroundings
the surroundings are sucking you up so you are dying as an independent being

loss of boundaries loss of self

Kohut talks about it as 'annihilation anxiety', i think...

kind of whatever the painful feelings (terror etc) are that everybody has to a greater or lesser extent. but sometimes they become so overwhelming it is hard to stay in the world and take some pleasure from the world and hard to do what you need to do.

thats kinda my version anyways. different people have their own way of describing it. in some ways it is an intensely personal experience that is different for different people. but in other ways it seem fairly public in the sense that everybody has got something...

can you write about it / describe it?