I guess you are right my friend. I seem to be ingrained (sp)
with sadness right now, like when you've been in the garden without gloves and it gets right in your skin, I am trying to be positive, but these feelings wont go away.

thankyou for caring. i expect too much from others, i wish i could expect something from myself apart from bloody crying like a stupid baby at stupid things. I'm 42, a mother and a bloody wimp.

jin