I can definitely agree to you feelings. But, I would rather say goodbye forever. Try not to think about the few people that would care. My ex boyfriend asked me a month ago if I was thinking about suicide and I lied and said no. He said good cause I would have broken up with you. I want to be with someone that's enjoys life. Life sucks and then you just go through the motions. (Sorry I'm not uplifting, at a hard place, just as you)