Well I posted this week that I felt like I had no right or reason to ask for help, or to even be alive. I overreacted a lot to getting my feelings hurt by the secretaries at Voc Rehab. They were certainly out of line being so rude to me, and I definitely had a right to be hurt. But I also took that a bit too far when I started thinking I shouldn't be alive, and then cut myself.

Well anyway, I had an appointment at Voc Rehab on Friday, and the counselor/boss guy there was SO NICE to me that I actually started to tear up. He said it was ok to cry, and I didn't have to put up a front of strength. I couldn't let myself cry, but I appreciated his words so much. I told him he was so kind to me, and that I appreciated it. He said that Voc Rehab is about the clients, and that sometimes his people forget that and need reminding. It felt so nice to know that he didn't condone how rude his secretaries were to me. Apparently my therapist had called him and told him about how mean the secretaries had been to me, and told him that she is NOT okay with them treating me that way.

I appreciate my therapist so much for that. Today, I feel like I am worth protecting and I am so deeply touched that she did protect me that I am tearing up as I write this.

If I could learn this lesson, that I am worth protecting, really well, maybe I could overcome the si thing and protect my own self.

*hugs to all who read this*
Angela