we know each other for almost 3 months, me and her work in the same company not same department not working together, I am kind aloof person, she is pretty more sociable and ENGAGED, it started when we talked couple of times, I grew feelings for her intensely and in no time, don't know if she knows it or not but she initiates conversations with me almost daily for hours expressing once that she feels like she knew me long time ago, insisting to know what may bother me asking me not to lie to her, sending gestures that she knows, showing interest, i saw it, others saw it. After one week She told me that I look like I am in love and she knows who i am in love with when i accused her with bluffing she assured me that she knows. Nothing bond us professionally, we even in two different offices and yet she pass by my office almost everyday at the morning to see me and say "Bonjour" with that sweet smile of her and i catch her sometimes giving me fleeting glances and she came and stayed with me at my office couple of times, and most of the rest of the day she is online chatting with me, I don't know if I may call her behavior was sort of flirtatious.

when I confront her with what she does she show disappointment in me and how I see it but she still around and she call it FRIENDSHIP, she sort of clingy when I hopelessly tried to stop this telling her that we cant be "friends" she insisted to know why I cant talk to her after she saw me talking to other ladies. after couple of weeks i have reached my emotional peak and told her how much i love her and now i am on free fall mode, she dodge it but she showed interest, although she denied her knowledge which she assured few weeks ago denying even having a guess which left me very confused almost on the edge of losing my mind doubting my own senses trying to believe her as i didn't know why she would do that, she doesn't need to do that, her responses fluctuated from changing the subject then she blamed me for it, to "may be" then she showed helplessness by not knowing what to do for me and every time i think that this is the end of it but somehow we get back together and start again the endless loop of me having hope every time we are back reestablishing a communication while I expect that she should not and here again she is letting me down. she would accept more to flirt with her and show her how i find her pretty or say something that imply that I love her rather than telling her "I love you" as she told me once she knows but I don't have to tell her. Now she let me express my feelings for her over and over and she expressed that I shouldnt tell her such things so I apologized and I figured out that I am in this process kept on and on for almost a month, which I dont know why.

Now her behavior can be put like this, she rejects me (or in other words she rejected to be in an official relationship with me) but she still wanna talk to me, she once threatened me that she will never talk to me again when i was telling her how much I treasure her and she came the next day and ask me how I am doing and being persistent to keep the relation, she tell me that I should not tell her that I love her while she has no problem being in a relationship with me while she knows I love her and act coy when I say something subtly flirtatious to her (I don't flirt usually), she sometimes mimicking my word for God sake and tell me see we said the same word at the same time as if somehow she implements this deep connection and before I confess my feeling to her she had told me that I matter to her and she said that she tolerates my rudeness (sometimes when I have my moments) like no other, distinguishing me from others, and lately after I told her how I feel for she started to get excuses to touch me like holding my arm or push me in the chest while she was talking to me she even may block my way while I was passing and Once we were not talking she came in where i was and came too close to me narrowing me between her and the shelves that were behind me to get something from there and that was after she had technically rejected me. So technically I am lost to know if its me who seeing things that way because I have feelings for her or its her who for some reason behaving and justifying that way though if so I cant figure out why she would be so mean, or if she just want to know if I really love her before she takes step forward, as I don't know why to risk her relationship with the one she says she is in love with by being implicated in another one full of such troubles or may be somehow she is not aware of what she is doing.

while our ambiguous kind of relationship kept on, i tried again to express discomfort and may be push her away by asking her if she doesn't care if her man know about this, she respond that there is nothing he would be told about!!! I seized a chance that she took few days off for medical reason and didn't contact her, she came back blaming me that I didn't ask about her while everyone else did, she makes it very difficult for me to cut her off, and nothing of what happened bothers her enough to do so. In order not to indulge with more suffocating details, which are many, i hope that this sum it up for you to help me and tell what this is.

what is this ? is she using me ? whats in it for her to be in a relationship like this with all its dispute risking her official relationship ? How isn't she fed up of this ? because I am fed up,

PS. She proclaim that she loves her fience.

Your advice are much appreciated