I have a lot of fear ...i have OCD i count ...1...2...3...1...2...3...1...2...3... over and over
Tonight i need to do OCD things like clean my hands over and over with bacterial hand gel ( the king you dont need water for ) my husband keeps stopping me from using the bacterial hand gel he says the gel will be bad for me to repeat the use of it

Tonight i watched a film with my husband its was a 12a and it was good
but there were images of Nuclear bombs i had no idea that it was in this film and my husband who normally watches films before me so i dont get triggered thought it was ok as it was a 12a now i cant get it off my mind am scared that something bad is going to happened if i dont clean my hands and count
it will happen

My husband is like forget it it shouldn't effect me the way things like this does
I want to clean the kitchen but my husband says it dont need done at this time its 23.34
he will not let me do what i need to do he wants me to go to bed but there is no way i can sleep like this he says nothing bad will happen
he dont understand about my OCD