I'm taking a survey. Here's the sole question:

Give me one good reason I shouldn't cut.

I broke a glass today. Got some nice big juicy glass shards just calling my name. I left them on the bathroom counter after throwing most of them away, but I know they're there.

I am currently in partial. Every day they give us these stupid symptom rating sheets, and every day I put "10" on a 1-10 scale for "urge to harm self" and every day the nurse and Ts freak out and make sure I have a "safety plan" and all that crap.

You know what? I don't f'ing care. I get triggered out of my f'ing mind every single day there, and I want to cut, and I see no reason not to. Frankly, I just don't care that much about myself or what happens to me. So why is it such a big damn deal?

If anybody can come up with a good reason I shouldn't have some fun with those glass shards, you let me know. I will do my best to listen with an open mind, I swear.

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