Ok, so I have my appt in a few hours, my T emailed me last night and told me to give some thought to just saying what I feel. Don't rationalize it first, don't think that what I say will make him want to stop seeing me as his client, don't think that what I say is going to sound awful that I think these or feel these thoughts, he wants me to just say it!! No boundaries on what I say in session!

So I am freaking, because if I say things and just say them, what will happen?? I always rationalize first, I am always afraid that what I feel and think isn't normal or right and that he will label me a freak or something.....

I wish I didn't have these issues!! I am angry with myself for knowing I need to get help but afraid of going there!!