I don't have strong romantic feelings for him because of the way he acts. That's the crux of the matter.

I'm thinking he never asked me to change about anything, but I became dissatisfied with him and asked him to change. Big Mistake! He didn't change and I drove myself crazy trying to stay in a romantic relationship that just didn't do it for me.

Now I keep running back and forth, staying/ leaving.

I have so much anger and resentment that he wouldn't give me what I needed. I hate him as a love, but I love him as a family member.

I still have a child at home. I am supposed to be filing for divorce now that it's the end of the summer, but I am not doing it.

To be honest, it's about the money, too.

All I know is this- I will not cope by harming myself anymore. I think I'll just start there.