Thanks Pikku. I'm still confused.
Scared on what if I'm just being played just to get into my pants. I'm aware of my asexuality though not sure if I could be in gray area of asexuality and could want sex with someone I love. But, I'm scared to love even.

With all of you saying, you would take the initiatives, it feels like, either my man hasn't really been in relationships or he is just saying so to make me comfortable into having sex.
Thanks again.