Hang in there Eden. As others have said you will be glad you did once you are in a better space. I know you don't feel unwell but having voices telling you to do harm is a sign of something being very off. Please tell the staff so they can help you. They don't want to harm you. Please don't run away. Most likely the police will find you anyway and bring you back. Please stay safe. All here at PC care deeply about you. I hope this passes soon and you can go home safe. Have you had any visitors?