It has derailed my life. But my back injury and my mother's death did too. But going through that psychosis really has effected me. I didn't get diagnosed until I was 36. I had been told by drs that they thought I had it but I didn't want to deal with all the meds. I wish I would have before it got so bad that the only thing that woke me up was losing touch with reality for an extended amount of time. Idk, I don't like having this disorder. I miss my hypos. Going through that psychosis really messed everything up.

But I'm stable now, just bored. My back causes me more problems than bp does.

My family is happier for me, so that says something.