Hey all! I hope everyone is doing alright.

I'm really just feeling very sad and hopeless tonight. I've been in a rut for the past week and I hate it, but at the same time it feels familiar to me. Happiness doesn't feel right to me. The few times I'm happy, I feel uncomfortable because I wonder how long it's going to last.

I just feel like nothing will ever change, and rationally I know that's not true. But I'm genuinely worried that nothing will ever change. That I'll never find love and never be happy and never be emotionally fulfilled and that my mom will never find a job that will make her feel happy and secure.

I feel hopeless and I'm very sad and I've been crying more than usual. I've also been feeling a lot more tired than usual. It's hard for me to get out of bed and, when I AM outside, I get easily overstimulated. Everything is too loud, there are too many people, it's too hot/too cold, it's too bright. I don't know. I'm actually going to the doctor to get a checkup because I feel that off.

Therapy helps, but when I come home I feel depressed and alone again.

There wasn't really a point to this post. I'm just not in a good headspace.

Thanks for taking the time to read this. I appreciate it.