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Hitting mania and it's a bad night. Seeing crap that isn't there the machine behind me keeps whispering and I know it's all in my freaking head. I'm locked in a building by myself. Any voices I hear just can't be there it's not logical. Seeing people walking around again not logical because I'm alone and I know this but it pisses me off to no end because I can't make it stop and knowing it's not real doesn't make it any less annoying.
At least i can keep centered enough to ignore it because logic dictates taht if I'm here alone no one is screwing with me I didn't lock anyone in with me so it's just in my head damn the faulty wiring I was born with
I know it can't be real but then part of the brain is like but you hear it don't you? you're seeing it don't you? and then logic kicks in and it's just a bad night and I'm rambling because it's keeping my attention here and not on what's around me
how do other peopel here deal with this crap?
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I think I need help 'cause I'm drowning in myself. It's sinking in, I can't pretend that I ain't been through hell. I think I need help---Papa Roach
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